Pamela Taylor's Truth

Hey!!! You Forgot to Apologize!!!

A revision of “No Sorry”.

I had to learn how to move forward without hearing, “I’m sorry.”

Some people had no clue they hurt me. Others were not in a place to show humility for their negative actions. I didn’t want to forgive anyone. I needed them to acknowledge the pain they caused me. Everyone does not have the capacity to acknowledge the need to apologize for wronging others. I’ve seen so many reality shows with friends fighting and then having the expectation of one saying the magic words, “I’m Sorry.” When this does not occur, the hurt peer lashes out from the pain. Then you have hurt people, hurting each other. There is no resolve to the damage if this type of behavior continues. As much as it pains you – forgive to live. A part of our life stops in that moment when we choose to live in the misery. Example: if a close friend betrays your trust, you are hurt and upset by this action. Most likely the friendship will never be the same or it’s over. We can also use a bad divorce or a terrible boyfriend/girlfriend breakup in place of the reckless friend… different scenario, but same ending. Fast forward down the road of life. A trustworthy person which possesses the qualities of a true confidant crosses your path. Unfortunately, the wounds from the past keeps you from truly engaging in a relationship that has the potential to change your life. We have friends that give us a new lease on life. They have the capacity to open new doors in pursuing our purpose. I have people in my life who keep me grounded and progressive.

God allowed me to see His heart.  The same heart He gave me after I accepted Him into my life. Jesus asked God to forgive those who took part in his crucifixion… while they divided his clothes, and gambled for them. (Luke 23:34 The Bible) Jesus knew he was sent to die for our sins. He could not accomplish this goal without forgiving his abusers.

We can not fully serve God with an unforgiving heart. God gave me the strength to forgive. It was not an EASY thing for me to do. Especially when I suffered hurt from those I love. I had to move forward without hearing, “I’m sorry.” I refuse to have unforgiveness hindering me from truly being happy and enjoying life.

The best revenge is not your paper, it’s forgiveness.

Muscle Bound

Do you ever daydream of having a fit body with lean muscles, toned arms and legs, and a six pack stomach? Well, I will be the first to raise my hand. Guilty! The only problem is dreaming will not build a better body. You have to exert energy to workout. Oh, yeah! Eating healthy is important too! Now, that’s another dilemma. I love food! I kinda live to eat; and not eat to live. It is a must that I workout. I have always tried to do some type of exercising. Unfortunately, it wasn’t rigorous enough to see the type of results I daydreamed about. In the past year, I increased the intensity of my workout. My body didn’t like the change – because it hurt. There have been visible results in my physique. My arms and legs are looking pretty good. I’m fighting to get at least a two pack. Ice cream is my kryptonite; and my husband keeps buying it for me.

So it is, with the different things we go through in life. We will not experience spiritual growth without trials. There is always a learning curve in it all. It makes no sense at the very moment, but we gain understanding after it’s over. I am dealing with a struggle of transition in my life at this moment. It is not an easy task to keep moving forward when you want to quit. My fuel through this time is prayer and reading the word. The scriptures give life in my weakness. Each time he said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” (NLT, 2 Corinithians 12:9-11)  As I face this test, I can see myself growing spiritually. A new level of faith and patience is overtaking me. When your backed up against a wall, it’s either fight or flight. I have to fight because my life is not just for me. There are others I must reach so God’s glory can manifest throughout the world.

Gym workout = Great body!

Spiritual workout = God’s glory!